Malaise

I cannot find words
Fitting to describe
This quandary I am in,
Where everything seems to pale
When you go away.

I wish it would change,
I'd like to taste life again -
Perhaps not.
But, this burden of needing you,
This fact, that my life is etched in memories of you...
Haunts.

I wish you were mine, only mine.
And I wish you wanted me to be yours.
I wish we could forget,
All that cannot be,
Except your love for me.
For this I would abandon reality.